The zone leaders gave a training in district meeting about consecration. It was so good. I'm so excited to really buckle down on consecration. They gave us a talk to read about consecration and it's sweet. I struggle with this so much. I half one foot on my mission and one foot at home and I really want to have both feet in my mission and completely forget about myself.
As I was pondering consecration yesterday at church I thought about a couple of things. We do not come on a mission for us. That isn't something I realized until yesterday. I thought of this mission as a time for me to change, improve, and learn. It isn't. This is not MY mission. This is His mission. This isn't about me growing and learning and developing attributes, although that is what ends up happening, but it is about HIM, Jesus Christ, and the growth of HIS church and the members in it.
And in this time of meditation we sang hymn number 188, "Thy will, oh Lord, be done." What a great song about consecration. Listen to that song!
At times I think it is impossible but then I remember 1 Nephi 3:7. The lord commands us to do it and He will make it possible. When I came out on a mission I dropped Matt and picked up Elder Segon. But Elder Segon isn't the name that is important on my name tag but it is Jesus Christ. It's an honor to be able to have His name next to mine, over my heart. When we put our name with His and put His name on our heart and IN our heart we must give Him everything. That's what consecration is, letting Christ into our heart, giving Him our heart. We have to give Him everything. Sleep, sports, TV, future, past, everything! We literally have to give up everything. Give Him everything. Give Him my name and put His on. I can't explain how important it is. We need to submit everything to Him. At church we stood up to sing a song and when we sat back down my iPad was gone. So I turned to Diane, a recent convert who is black, and told her to give it back. She looks at me and says "oh I knew it. You gonna look at me because I'm black. You think because I'm black I'm da one who took yo ipad?" Haha I was laughing. She was pretty loud too! She was messing around with me! But in gospel principles we were talking about our eternal family and she talked about that and said "see it's cool cause we all brothers and sisters. We play around with each other. He knew I was pranking him and that I did it. Colors don't matter we are all family." So that was cool that she truly understood the concept of us all being brothers and sisters. Good week. Was slow but good.
Thank you by the way to all who sent me a gift!!! It meant so much to me! I love you all!!